The Truth Behind My Lies

2012

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

A Very Happy New Year Guys!

My new year resolutions?

I just want to achieve what i wish for my whole entire life.

So, this video is for you guys.

Hope you like it.

Like and comment please.

Appreciate it so much.
Bye.

Kunci (Hey, I'm alive ok)

2011-12-23T01:20:00.001+08:00

Sebagai tanda yang saya masih wujud lagi, nah video satu. This is just an experimental video that i did for the sake of boredom. Thanks to my friend, malamutatie who recorded this for me. Feel free to visit my Youtube channel ok :) Oh and, Malaysia Boleh! Bye.

I'm That Girl.

2011-12-17T23:58:00.001+08:00

Hi.

Remember me?

I'm that girl who always be there for you when your friends leave you.

I'm that girl who never judge you when you do stupid things.

I'm that girl who laugh with you.

I'm that girl who cry with you.

I'm that girl who cry for you.

I'm that girl who you forget now.

I'm that girl.

Remember me?

Itulah Sayang.

2011-11-13T04:08:00.001+08:00

Nah. Amiklah video ni sebagai tanda kasih sayang saya dekat awak. Ya, ini kami punya suara. Kami boleh berubah suara. Tak caya sudah. Bontot awak terbelah. Midsem holidays pun dah nak abis. Tinggal harini jer. Esok dah start class yang macam hell tu. Literally. Tapi serious tak sabar nak pergi so-call lawatan sambil belajar di Langkawi bersama teman sekelas khamis ni. Yay! Ok bye.

p/s= Saya dah semakin malas untuk update blog. Harap maklum.

Korban.

2011-11-06T13:56:00.001+08:00

Makan rendang bersama nasi impit,

Beserta pula dengan kuah kacang,

Rasa macam raya Syawal,

Rupanya raya bulan Zulhijjah.

Salam Aidil Adha.

p/s= Aku tak reti buat pantun. Sekian.

Forever 21.

2011-10-07T19:34:00.003+08:00

Am officially 21 (5 days ago). Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for giving me chances to live in this world. I thank you Allah for giving me a wonderful life yet there's ups and downs. I thank you Allah for letting me live and cherish every moments with the loved ones. I thank you Allah for family that you gave it to me. I know i am not a very good Muslims. I will try my very best. I promise. God, you are the one who still besides me when i'm happy, lonely, frust, angry. I thank you Allah for this.

Thank you people with all the wonderful wishes! Appreciate it alot.

Here's some hugs and kisses :*
Bye.

Suara Kami 2011

2011-09-24T17:59:00.004+08:00

So, here's the pictures.

Oh, and a video too.

I don't care what you think about coz I'll do what I do.

2011-09-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

This is the reason why i'm not updating my blog.

LOL. I'm joking. I made this video last night. And yeah, definitely not the reason. I'm just too lazy. I'm sorry my fellow readers. I don't feel it anymore. I hope it's temporary though. Because i miss blogging. I do. Ouh yeah, my new semester is going to start on this Monday. My final year study in UiTM and then practical. Whoah! Time flies so fast. I hope my semester 5 gonna be awesome. I miss my classmates! Especially my close friends. Well, see you soon Shah Alam!

Bye.

p/s= It would be nice if you can comment or like my video. Tq :)

pp/s= I broke my shades. I need a new one.

Dear Blog,

2011-09-07T02:08:00.002+08:00

I owe you.

Spongebob Squarepants.

2011-08-26T02:37:00.000+08:00

I just find it very amusing.
So, i record it.

I'm pretty sure Bob Papant is much closer to Spongebob Squarepants if you sing it quickly.

Isn't she adorable? :D

I love you Ayra.

Please, don't grow up so fast ok sayang.

Btw, this video is old. I recorded it in July i guess.

Bye.

Fun Fun Fun Fun.

2011-08-19T08:49:00.000+08:00

I'm beautiful in my way

Cause God makes no mistakes.

Haritu dengar lagu Born This Way dalam kereta kawan tiba tiba terketawa kecil. Teringat masa sebelum cuti panjang, ada buat sesi senam erobik dalam rumah pukul 3 pagi tapi kami panggil clubbing. Baru barat kata orang. Eventhough just copy balik steps from Glee episode, memang dah terasa diri ni macam professional dancer like Heather Morris(Brittany S. Pears). Seronok bila menari macam orang gila dalam rumah bersama teman teman akrab ni. Kau menari salah ker peduli apa. Asalkan dapat release tension. Tak gitu?

Serious doh, aku rindu gila korang.

Tak sabar nak balik Shah Alam.

Ya, ini muka kami yang sebenar.

Btw, student card aku mana haa? :O

Tuhla dia, cuti lama sangat.

Bye.

Manners.

2011-08-14T02:54:00.000+08:00

Hi.

Salam Ramadhan.

Hari ni i nak cerita sikit pasal manners. Ditujukan khas bagi yang dah ada anak or tengah on the way nak dapat anak, masih cuba or teringin nak anak for future nanti. Last night, i pergi terawih as usual with my mum.

There's one kid i think about 4 years old; boy, playing around dekat belakang jemaah perempuan. So, i was like "Ah, kids. Biasalah tu" We prayed and masa rakaat kelapan that boy running all around us. I mean, he used the sejadah to make it like a railway. I was so pissed off but i can't do anything. We all tengah solat time tu. He ran until imam bagi salam and everyone look at him. Then one makcik ni bangun and cakap, " Tolong, anak sape ni? Tolonglah yer. Kami nak sembahyang" Shockingly, takda sape pun yang mengaku tu anak dia. Well, i rasa mak dia malu kot nak mengaku. I don't know.

So, apa yang i nak cakap sebenarnya please lah train your children to behave in public. Bukan masa terawih jer pun. If anak you tu memang hyper or degil, atleast tegur dia jangan buat macam tu or tarik dia pergi dekat you. Jangan buat bodoh jer. Jangan lepas tangan. Or jangan bawak terus anak you ikut pergi terawih. Apa? You said takda orang nak jaga? Then, takpayah pergi surau or masjid buat terawih. Bukannya tak boleh buat dekat rumah. Kalau you datang bawak anak you and menyusahkan jemaah lain, tak ker dah jatuh dosa. Just please, teach your kids about manners.

I tak paham betul parents yang tak buat langsung bila tengok anak dia behave like an animal in public. I know, kid is always a kid and parent is always a parent but if y'all as a parent did not do anything about y'all kids, well y'all just sucks being parents. Note that.

Bye.

Ramadhan.

2011-08-01T07:59:00.000+08:00

This is so true.

Youtube is so far the best video sharing website.

2011-07-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

Too much Youtube. Yes, indeed. I feel inspired today after watching stop motion videos. They are good. Very good. Well, practice makes perfect isn't it? Comment if you like it.

Bye.

Oh btw, i have couple of videos that i made by myself.
Just go to my youtube channel :)

Old friend and youth time.

2011-07-24T02:23:00.000+08:00

First of all,

I'm sorry.

I know it kinda super late to post this entry. So, i'm gonna make it as simple, short as i can. Urbanscapes was awesome. Sweating like hell, but awesome. Thank you Mun. Met my schoolmates there. A really great place to chill out with friends and collecting youth time before its too late. And if there's any festival or art shows that are been held, hell i'm going to the festival. I hope i can make it for next year's Urbanscapes. Bye.

p/s= See, i told you it was short.
pp/s= RIP Amy Winehouse.

Just adolescents.

2011-07-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

Hello.

I just came back from a vacation with my family at Langkawi and it was great.

Been waiting this time to come for so long.

Ok now, see this.

Yes. I won the tickets. Thank you Junk! :) Fyi, i am still searching for 3 friends to join with me. I've called and messaged my close friends and ask them if they wanna join. Well, sad news. They can't. To tell you the truth, i don't feel excited anymore.

Maybe i should give away this tickets? We'll see.

Oh wait! Got one friend that can join me. Yeah!

But, another 2 pretty please ;)

Bye.

Please Take Me To Urbanscapes 2011.

2011-07-04T05:56:00.000+08:00

Hi.

How are you?

So, i made this video for a contest that i participated to get free Urbanscapes tickets. First, i thought i wanna make a four-A4 papers-taped-together doodles. I made halfway through of it though but i didn't finish it because i don't feel excited to make it like i feel it before. Then, i made a last minute decision and that is to make a video about it. I hope they accept my video.

Without further ado, please enjoy watching the video.

It will be better if you comment it after watching this.

Bye.

Just Random.

2011-07-02T07:42:00.000+08:00

Wow.

Time flies so fast.

Oh, hello?

Yeah, i should update more aite since i'm on my holiday right now. But hell to the no. I ain't gonna do what you want me to do. Ok, i'm sorry. It's just i don't wanna write something crap. I've ideas. Like sooo many ideas and when i wanna start to write, i'm blank. You know what i mean.

So, yeah. I've Tumblr. Bye.

Three months babe. What should i do?

2011-06-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah baby.

Holiday, here i come!

WhatsApp? Get it get it? Ok, tak funny pun.

Whats up guys? It's been a long time since my last post aite. I'm just spending my time for my intersession and exam. Yes, now i'm done with my intersession. Last paper tadi Finance (repeat) and thank God dapat jawab dengan confident. Bukan over confident yer. Atleast i know lah what to do kan. So, now i'm heading off to make my holiday fully utilize like my bambam said. Hehehe.

Fyi, i will attend a 'how to make cupcakes' class at kajang with my sis every weekend. My mom lah yang suggest kan. Maybe boleh buat bisnes kan kan. So yeah, that is all i guess. Bye.

p/s= Gonna make my own Tumblr.

Feeling good.

2011-06-10T02:38:00.000+08:00

Whats up?

I'm not happy.

Oh please. Just kill yourself.

Hey. I am so sorry for not updating this blog. You can say that i'm busy. Or lazy. Either one or both. So, fast forward my life so far so good. Intersession almost comes to end. I've got two weeks left for my final exam and next friday (i guess) is my result day for semester 4. Yeah, i'm pretty sure it will effect my feelings. You just imagine, next week your result will come out and next next week is your final exam for intersession. Does it effect you a little bit? Frustration are forbidden for me since i've got exam the other week. Pray hard kids!

Then, hello 3 months holiday!

Yeah baby.

Bye.

Mr Who and Mrs Whom.

2011-05-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

p/s= I've no idea what to update. Sorry.

Yes sir.

2011-05-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yes, i have intersession.

Yes, i am now learning new things.

Yes, i'm not quite sure why i felt like

i never learn anything from the same subject.

Yes, i know others are enjoying their holidays.

Yes, i'm aware of it.

Yes, it took me ages to online.

And yes, this is because i don't have access to surf the internet.

Oh yes, bye.

Jom Conteng.

2011-05-15T20:52:00.001+08:00

www.contengconteng.com

Aku join contest ni sebab aku rasa benda ni menyeronokkan dan sesuai dengan jiwa raga aku yang minat melukis ni. Ini entri dia yang aku rasa aku pulak nak cerita tapi versi aku. Tapi, aku jawab dulu lah soalan dia.

Apakah 3 perkara yang paling anda suka dengan blog contengconteng?
Apakah 3 perkara yang anda rasa boleh diperbaiki?
Apakah 3 barangan (merchandise) yang anda ingin blog contengconteng hasilkan? (Contoh: Mug, T-shirt, Kad Ucapan).

1) -Lukisan dia.

- Cerita/pengalaman dia.

- Sebab blog dia nama Conteng Conteng.

2) -Banyakkan lukisan yang macam awesomeness ni.

- Selalu update.

- Sekali sekala, kalerkan kartun tu ok jugak kan :)

3) - T shirt.

- Button.

- Sticker.

So, here we go (jadi, mari kita mulakan).

Manusia memang tamak. Bila dah dapat satu, nak satu lagi. Bila dah dapat dua, nak lagi tiga. Bila kita dah dapat apa yang kita nak, tak reti pulak nak bersyukur. Aku akui, kadang kadang aku pun macam tu jugak. Yelah, aku manusia. Bukannya Tuhan. Engkau tahu tak, kita sebenarnya akan sedar bila kita berada dalam kesusahan. Bila kita menangis teresak esak pikirkan kenapa malagnya nasib kita ni. Tapi sebenarnya, kita tak tahu atau mungkin kita tak sedar yang ada orang lagi susah dari kita. Ada orang lagi memerlukan apa yang kita perlu, apa yang kita mahu.

Bagi aku, cukuplah mempunyai satu belon daripada aku ambil semua. Cukuplah aku mempunyai seorang mama dan seorang ayah daripada tiada langsung. Cukuplah aku mempunyai seorang kawan yang betul betul memahami aku luar dan dalam daripada aku mempunyai sekumpulan kawan kawan yang hanya tahu tikam kawannya dari belakang.

Jadi, manusia. Tolong jangan tamak. Kau pikir hidup kau tak best. Sebenarnya, ada manusia lain yang hidupnya tak best.

Bye.

p/s= Harap harap menang. Hehehe

It ended very well.

2011-05-11T04:36:00.000+08:00

The movie really give me a goosebumps and it does taught me that we should appreciate our life more. God lend us a life and He do not want us to waste our time with silly things. Be more responsible towards ourself. Things aren't always happen like we want it.

Anyway, my Semester 4 is officially end. Alhamdulillah, i managed to answers all the exam papers eventhough there's a tiny bump during the exams. But i still can answer those horrifying questions. And hello for long holidays!

Wait. I have intersession next week. So, no holidays for me? Ou man!

Bye.

Dear mama,

2011-05-08T05:17:00.000+08:00

If I knew as a child what I know now, Mama,

I probably wouldn't have made things so hard for you.

I would have understood that you were looking out for my best interest.

Even though it may not have seemed so at the time.

I would have known how difficult it is to let go,

to stand back and let someone you love learn from their mistakes.

I would have realized how fortunate I was to have a mother

who was always there for me,even after an argument,

even after I'd said things I shouldn't have.

While it's too late for a lot of things, it's not too late for me to tell you

that I appreciate how loving you are, how giving you've always been

and that even though I may not always be good at showing it,

I love you very much Mama ♥

p/s= The picture was taken on 2009 i think. Family Day.

pp/s= This is one way i'm showing the love for my mum. I know she won't read this. Going to call her anyway. Happy Mama's Day everyone!

I was born this way.

2011-05-06T03:57:00.000+08:00

I may skinny, thin, bony, pinched or lanky. I may have an underweight BMI. But i never put myself even not in a million times i'm anorexia. Please, i'm not an idiot. Do you think i'm willing to be thin like those stupid Victoria Secret's model? Hell no. Plus, i'm no supermodel. I'm just a teenage girl who likes to sleep in her bed until noon and eat junk food. I know some of my friends are worried about me because i'm not a person who always finish up their meals. Ok, i have this rules. Rules of mine. It is called The Rules of Meal.

1) I like simple meals. I don't mind if there is no kuah. Certain people need to have kuah on their rice, like my dad. I can eat only rice and telur dadar or rice and fried chicken. That's enough for me.

2) I can finish up my food if i have more time. I'm a slow eater. This problem always occur when i eat at warong. Because you know, when you're with friends it kinda hard to resist the talking. You know what i mean girls.

3) I really like soft rice. When i cook rice, i like to put lil bit more water than usual. I don't like hard rice. Hard means, you can hear sound like 'tik tik tik' when rice are falling from your plate.

There you go. My Rules of Meal. Guys, don't worry about me. Maybe i'm just a type who eat a lot but still thin. Well, we'll see when i got married soon. Maybe it will change my body. Who knows right? Like my mum. She's skinny just like me when she was young and look at her now (for those who has seen my mum), not that skinny right?

I'm not saying that i don't want to be fat. sort of.

I try. It's just the time has not arrived yet.

I'm happy with myself.

Bye.

p/s= gonna make a shirt that says, SKINNY.

Rezeki tak datang bergolek.

2011-05-03T05:21:00.000+08:00

Setiap usaha yang kita lakukan samada bersungguh atau tidak,

begitu jugalah ganjaran yang bakal kita dapat.

Maksudnya, kalau kau rajin berusaha, Allah akan bagi ganjaran yang setimpal atas usaha yang kau lakukan. Jadi, kalau kau malas; berat bontot, macam tu jugaklah Allah balas. Kira macam malas malas jugaklah kan. Rezeki tak datang bergolek babe. Tapi, tak semestinya Allah bagi ganjaran dengan serta merta. Dia boleh bagi instant, esok, minggu depan, tahun depan atau 10 tahun akan datang. Sebab manusia ni kan cepat riak, bangga, susah nak bersyukur. So, sebab tu lah Dia Maha Mengetahui.

Contoh 10 tahun akan datang:

"Oh, kalau aku tak fokus dalam kelas Cikgu Kartini masa form 4 dulu, mesti aku tak dapat masuk UiTM. Lepas tu, mesti tak dapat kerja gaji mahal. Alhamdulillah."

*Cikgu Kartini ajar aku add math.

See. 10 tahun akan datang baru kau nampak ganjaran dia kan. Jadi, bersabar. Setiap perbuatan yang kita lakukan atas niat yang ikhlas mesti Allah beri ganjaran dia. Tak kisahlah lambat atau cepat. Aku pelik, kenapa manusia masih lagi nak buat perkara syirik. Nak kata jahil, zaman dah maju. Bukan macam dulu dulu, pakai skirt tapi bertudung jambul. Ok, sekarang pun ada. Tak, maksud aku cuba kita lihat dalam perniagaan. Aku bagi contoh paling dekat. Bangsa aku sendiri: Melayu dan Islam. Kenapa kita nak guna benda haram untuk laku kan perniagaan kita? Sebab yang tu paling cepat dan senang? Kau pikir bila nak mengadap yang atas sana tu nanti senang ker? Orang berniaga air jambu sebelah pun kau santau sebab dia yang buat gerai kau tak laku. Aku tengok orang Cina jual air soya berderet 10 gerai tak kisah pun nak santau santau orang. Elok jer bisnes diorang.

Ok, sebenarnya nak bagi kata semangat dekat diri sendiri sebab harini killer paper. So, apa yang aku tulis kat atas tu just to remind myself that aku dah usaha takat mana yang aku mampu untuk paper tu. Aku harap bolehlah jawab paper tu nanti. Tak lupa, doa dan tawakal.

Bye.

I'm no superman.

2011-05-01T06:17:00.000+08:00

My new obsession.

Him.

There are no words,

to paint a picture of you girl

Your eyes,and those curves,

it's like you're from some other world

You walk my way,

oh God it's so frustrating.

So why do I disappear when you come near,

It makes me feel so small,

Why do I blow my lines, most every time,

Like I got no chance at all,

If I could be your superman,

I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

'cause everytime you touched my hand,

I can feel my powers running through your veins.

But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.

'Cause I'm no superman,

I hope you like me as I am,

oh yeah, aladadadadi

No, it ain't no lie,

I have to tell you how I feel,

But each time,

that I try it gets a little more unreal,

You say my name,

oh girl I can't stop shaking.

So why do I disappear when you come near,

It makes me feel so small,

If I could read your mind,

Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.

If I could be your superman,

I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

'cause everytime you touched my hand,

I can feel my powers running through your veins.

But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.

Cause I'm no superman,

I hope you like me as I am

ladadadi, woahhhh, woahhh, yeah, babadadadiii

woahhh, yeah

If I could be your superman,

I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

'Cause everytime you touched my hand,

I can feel my powers running through your veins.

But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.

'cause I'm no supermaaaan,

I hope you like me as I am.

alallladali.

Freak show.

2011-04-29T04:22:00.000+08:00

Just watched a video of someone singing Grenade by Bruno Mars. Ok, i'm not saying that i am really good at speaks in English. It's just funny when we hear someone speaks wrongly in term of pronunciation.

Girl. You are trying so hard to speak just like Bruno Mars (i think).
And it end up like this:

Trash-tres
Cause-curse
Pain-paint
Devil-divel
Watch-wash

Go and cover your face lah. Just like me.

Bye.

I'm trying hard not to resist the joy.

2011-04-27T23:23:00.001+08:00

Hello. Do you know how it feels when you are surrounded by people that you love? When all your problems are suddenly disappear. The path that you looking for a long time ago emerge right in front of you. Being loved is the needs of all.

Disagree?

I'm sorry for you. I think you are love-less.

A good friend allows you a safe space to share your deepest thoughts and needs without worry of being judged, criticized or made to feel silly for feeling the way you do. Friends cheer each other on, laugh and cry together, and just plain commiserate and listen to each other (quote)

Yet sometimes, friends are really make you feel pain in the ass. With bad jokes, bad lies, bad in everything when the time is not right. But it actually will build more stronger relationship between others.

Apart from that, i just wanna show you this video that i've made this morning. My friends and i were having a good time during study week. Well, sort of. Enjoy!

Bye.

p/s= Tomorrow is my first paper. Wish me luck guys! :)

Quote (1)

2011-04-26T08:11:00.001+08:00

This is just my random thoughts.
Picture taken when i'm with my girls doing study group.

Bye.

True friend.

2011-04-25T19:05:00.000+08:00

Hey yaw. Feeling so restless today? I am. Because of too much sleep!

Wait. What is the significant between restless and sleep? It doesn't make any sense at all. Oh well.

I'm at Shah Alam now in case you wanna know. And yeah, my habit (sleeping all day) didn't change anyway. Woke up very late, but still feeling so tired. Anyway, last night i was cleaning up my lappy. Then i found this one note in my documents.

We sign our cards and letters BFF

You've got a million ways to make me laugh

You're lookin' out for me, you've got my back

So good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell

And when I'm quiet you break through my shell

Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell

'Cause you keep my feet on the ground

You're a true friend

You're here till the end

You pull me aside when something ain't right

Talk with me now and into the night

'Til it's alright again

You're a true friend

You don't get angry when I change the plans

Somehow you're never out of second chances

Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again

I'm so lucky that I've found

A true friend

You're here till the end

You pull me aside when something ain't right

Talk with me now and into the night

'Til it's alright again

True friends will go to the ends of the earth

Till they find the things you need

Friends hang on through the ups and the downs

Cause they've got someone to believe in

A true friend

You're here till the end

You pull me aside when something ain't right

Talk with me now and into the night

No need to pretend

You're a true friend

You're here till the end

You pull me aside when something ain't right

Talk with me now and into the night

'Til it's alright again

You're a true friend

At first, i thought this is a poem that i wrote during past time. But i guess it isn't. I'm not a good writer fyi. So, i google it. Then i found this.

Oh. It's Hannah Montana. No wonder lah it so Disney.

But, i like the lyrics btw.

Bye.

Talk different, act different.

2011-04-24T19:22:00.000+08:00

Oh yeaahh. I am back on track.

Yehaaww! (country slang)

Whats up girlfriend. I have one question. Does anyone had an experienced on people that always talk different but act different? Ok. I change it to bahasa. It means, cakap tak serupa bikin. Have you? Well, i guess everybody had this experience aite. I'm not quite understand why they like to be on that way. Don't you think that you are just being hypocrite?

A: WTF! Euuww. Look at that fatty fatty bum bum girl. Behind the wall. Does she looks horrible? With those tight jeans. Hahaha. I saw her fats! *heartless laugh

Days after the incident.

A: I'm gonna wear tight jeans to go to JB's concert. He's gonna die when he looks at me. My beautiful legs. Auww~

Reality check: A is a very fatty fatty bum bum girl.

Did you get it what i mean? Ok. Try watch this video. No butthurt ok!

Annoying much? Still don't get it what i mean? In that case, i think you need some help dude. If you felt the same feeling like me, then thank you for understanding that situation. And i hope you got my point. Btw, this is my first video that i touch about something. So, agak kaku sedikit :)

Bye.

Life won't wait you.

2011-04-24T07:08:00.000+08:00

Hello there. It's been a month now since my last post. I am sorry readers and stalkers for disappearing. I've stuff to do. It's called life. Do not worry about me. My life so far isn't that bad as you thought. It's just, when you don't think about it (horrifying things) it actually makes you life more pleasant as i can say.

Wow. Now you will think that i'd tried to kill myself.

If you insist to think like that. Hey, no judgement from me.

Ok. Let us see what is going on with my life during the disappearing.

Joy.

Heartbreak.

Friends.

Frenemy.

Family.

Uni life.

Assignments.

Tests.

Study week.

Finals.

Yup. That's all i guess. Nothing interesting to tell about. Oh yeah, there is one thing i want you to know. My 1st paper for finals is on 28th April and to tell you the truth, i'm still working on to get my ass to be more hardworking because i haven't start to revise yet.

Wait. I lie. Bad lie isn't it?

Yeah. I've started already. But not quite a 100% focus, in case you wanna know which i know that you are not really care about it. What do you expect? I'm at my home. One whole week ok. Temptations and distractions are everywhere man. I'm not pointing finger. Alah, you know what i mean kan. Enough with blogging. But i think, i owe you one right? :)

Bye.

p/s= Just so you know, i've changed a lil bit on my blog. Tell me if you're aware about it!

Too many secrets will eat you slowly.

2011-03-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

i always wanted to tell my secrets. but if i tell to the world, it won't be a secret anymore. despite i actually want everyone to know my secrets. urm, specific people to be exact. damn it. it's to hard to keep it in my heart. i just want to throw it all away. too many secrets doesn't make you strong. it will eat you slowly.

not all secrets we can share to everyone.
because we don't know what will people think of us.
shock.
understandable.
worried.
or they just don't care.

btw, i am so sorry for being invisible this couple weeks. i don't have life. that is the reason why i'm not updating my blog. i'm nobody. a loner. oh, do not worry about me. i'm ok. bye.

This is not a quick update.

2011-03-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

hi there :) yeah, i'm still alive. sorry lama gila tak update. i'm not in a mood. tengah recover ni ok. as you all know, my previous post tu kan. ok dah dah. stop talking and asking about the concert. i'm not going. capish? sebenarnya banyak benda nak cerita tapi i malas gila. serious malas. serious ni. so, later lah ok. i will make quick update. ok byee :D

Yes, I'm dead.

2011-03-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

frustrated.

i'm really hoping for this so much.

like seriously.

willing to spend money just to see you.

but what did you do?

SOLD OUT in 5days.

WTF!

curse you organizer.

because you choose PWTC instead of another places.

curse you ticketpro.

because you give wrong information.

oh yeah, you are so NOT pro.

i hate everyone that got to see him.

do you think his fans aren't that much?

well, you are wrong.

aahhhh~ ! :O

i really can't handle the truth right now.

bye.

Masih.

2011-03-15T03:09:00.000+08:00

maaf diatas kehilangan.

masalah kesihatan

dan rutin harian

serta aktiviti yang berlambak.

cuma mahu kata

last week minggu yang

paling seronok.

kerja gila semua buat.

nasib baik diri tak gila.

akan update bila jiwa dah stabil.

maksudnya, rajin dan malas

kembali normal.

malam.

p/s= tak senang duduk selagi tak dapat apa yang diingini.

Dan kenapa dia boyfriend saya.

2011-03-06T06:54:00.000+08:00

1st, bila pertama kali dengar dia dok sibuk sibuk cakap yang dia nak jadi billionaire. bila dia cakap dia nak beli semua benda yang dia tak pernah ada. masa tu la. ok, i paham you nak jadi billionaire so freakin bad kan. i think you wannabe billionaire pun sekarang ni. kan kan :D

2nd, bila i ubah statement from 'i don't want any crush' to 'you are like seriously my crush'. pathetic? yeah, you can say that again. but do i care? naahh~ you sebenarnya my crush yang sangat tak menyakitkan hati i. sebab i tahu you takkan sakitkan hati i. lame.

3rd, bila masa study week dia ajak i lepak dekat i city. dan bila dia nyanyikan lagu all about you guna gitar dia. sweet sangat. macam nak golek golek dekat i city tu. hehe. oh lupa, dan bila dia send email dekat i, which is gambar yang dia snap untuk i XD

4th, bila dia finally decided to come to Asia for his so called vacay. dia buat saya sangat teruja because i love him. eventhough dia tak letak Malaysia dalam schedule list dia. and at this time, i really begging him to come to Malaysia which ends up to number 5.

5th, and yeah. my wish was came true. finally, he put Malaysia in his list. ni membuatkan i bertambah sayang sayang sayang sayang dekat dia. muah muah!

and that is why he is my boyfriend. peter gene hernandez ♥

omagaaaaddd! ♥

p/s= 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th adalah link post. sekian.

100th followers.

2011-03-06T02:22:00.001+08:00

post kali ini adalah untuk followers i yang ke 100. sebenarnya dah lama niat nak bagi 'banner' lah kononnya pada sesiapa yang jadi followers i yang ke 100. well, i tak sangka pun followers i dah mencecah 100 lebih. terima kasih pada semua yang sudi follow blog ini. eventhough i tahu bukan semua yang follow tu baca blog i kan kan kan :) it's ok. tak marah pun. i tak pernah paksa korang follow blog ni. i dah cukup appreciate bila you all baca setiap post yang ada dalam blog ni kalau you tak follow sekalipun. so, thanks alot yer! :D

so, nak ucapkan tahniah dekat Rina Ramli/Ifti sebab jadi followers i yang ke 100. i kenal dia through Sahabat Blogger. so, yeah yeah. congrats! :D seperti yang telah dijanjikan, nah award/banner/sukahatilahnakpanggilapapun untuk awak! dengan harapan, jadilah followers/pembaca setia i yer ;)

ok byee :D

p/s= pada followers/readers/stalkers i yang lain, jangan jealous ok sayangs. i tetap sayang you all ketat ketat! (:

Lose control.

2011-03-05T02:23:00.000+08:00

home.

facebook-ing.

blog-ing

twitter-ing.

tv marathon.

youtube marathon.

bye.

Tak semudah yang disangka.

2011-03-04T03:09:00.000+08:00

pernah rasa kau berpura pura

di hadapan makhluk si mata tiga.

pernah rasa kau hanya berdusta

cuma mahu senangkan hati si dia.

pernah rasa kau belum sedia

untuk menerima cinta sang arjuna.

pernah rasa kau tidak setia

pada cinta yang tiada penghujungya.

pernah rasa kau gadaikan nyawa

pada jiwa belum berpunya.

. . . .

aku tahu aku berpura

tapi untuk berlagak jelita.

aku tahu aku berdusta

tapi untuk wang sakunya.

aku tahu aku tak sedia

hanya kerana tubuhku miliknya.

aku tahu aku tak setia

sebab dia berkayu tiga.

aku tahu aku gadaikan nyawa

kerana hati pernah terluka.

I learned to live, half-alive: Jar of hearts.

2011-03-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

currently in love with this song. eventhough i know this song doesn't match with my life yet. but somehow i think it is really match with people around me. you know, people that have problem with love. with a relationship.

well i think this song is about a girl who loved a man very much but he is such a jerk. always treat her like shit, lying and cheating. and surprisingly she never think of that. and when the girl decides to live without him, when she finally stand up on her feet after almost dying from the pain, he came and wants her back. she thinks its better they never meet again because meeting would open an old scars and bring all back the old, bitter memories that she had to buried long time ago.

all the promises. such bullshit.
enjoy the song :) what? enjoy? erh, literally.

No I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love

I loved the most

I learned to live, half-alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are

Runnin' round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live, half-alive

And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are

Runnin round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

It took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are

Runnin' round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Dan bila rindu.

2011-03-01T03:00:00.000+08:00

semalam call mama. tanya pasal bila nak buat kenduri doa selamat. then, borak borak. tanya mama, cinonet tu ada kat rumah tak. mama kata takda. sebab daddy dia bawak pegi klinik. dia demam. then my mum said, dia tanya pasal i. "ucuk ane?" alahai. rindu yer :) ucuk pun rindu ni kat ayra. nanti ucuk balik, kita buat muncung muncung bagi panjang ok(bagi sape yang pernah tengok gambar tu). hehe. post ni, nak bagitau yang i rindu sangat dekat my niece tu. nak balik rumah! :(

oh btw, pasal kenduri tu sebab mama ayah and my cuzz akan pergi umrah. diorang rancang nak buat kenduri 13march ni. tapi i takda. ada aktiviti fakulti(opkim). so, maybe akan buat this weekend or kalau tak jadi stick with old plan lah. tapi i takda lah nak tolong. haih. damn.

eh, dah bulan march?

sekejapnyee.

oh lupa.

bulan February kan pendek. tu yang rasa sekejap.

sindiran.

ok byee :D

bak kata ayah, cucu mithali. ahaks!

Yang salah, dikutuk. Jadi, apa bezanya kau dengan dia?

2011-02-28T05:21:00.001+08:00

guna kata ganti nama kau aku supaya lebih sarkastik.

baru tahu isu sentap menyentap, sindir menyindir antara LR dengan YZ. ok, ada konteks yang boleh diterimapakai dan ada yang tidak bagi aku. ni pandangan aku. so, jangan sape sape nak butthurt pulak lepas ni. nanti tak pasal pasal aku pulak yang dikondem.

pertama: isu istilah lacur itu. sangat tak cool. kerana word itu hina. apetah lagi kalau kau digelarkan dengan status itu. kau boleh jer guna perkataan lain. aku tahu dia tak maksudkan pun. dia saja nak letak tittle gempak so that orang tertarik nak baca. macam kalau kau belajar marketing, kau nak attract customer untuk guna produk kau or tengok ads kau. kau mesti buat customer kau curious nak guna or tengok. samalah macam dia ni. *jika dia tak maksudkan

kedua: aku sokong separuh dari konteks yang dia post. aku setuju bila dia kata perlu ada pengetahuan, pengalaman dan pemerhatian. sebab selalunya orang menulis membabi buta. tanpa bukti yang kukuh. tahu tahu, nak blame orang. mencanang cerita tak betul. pasal naikkan trafik itu, sangat annoying. kalau semata mata nak popular and kejarkan duit, tak kemananya wang nuffnang kau tu. macam kawan aku, dia tak jaja pun blog dia. banyak jer dia dapat duit dari nuffnang. rating dia tinggi jer.

ketiga: aku setuju bila dia kata pasal vlog yang memalukan diri sendiri. ok, yang pasal memalukan diri sendiri itu hak masing masing. kalau kau dah publishkan sesuatu video atas perbuatan kau sendiri dan bukan atas paksaan, kau kena terima kritikan orang lain. kritik bermaksud penilaian manfaat dan ralat dari sesuatu tindakan individu atau kumpulan oleh orang lain. aku bold manfaat tu sebab biasanya orang lebihkan perbuatan menjatuhkan, memalukan, mengaibkan, menyumpah seranah tindakan si terkena kritik(ditujukan khas pada komentar tegar). jadi aku tak setuju bila dia letak nama mangsa tu bulat bulat. sebab dia dah jatuhkan air muka si mangsa.

keempat: bagi aku. kalau kau tak suka dengan sesuatu perbuatan orang tu, kau takpayahlah nak blame orang tu. maksud aku, kau lagi menambahkan pahala orang tu atas kutukan yang diberi. kau tu, dah banyak sangat ker pahala sampai kau bagi percuma kat dia? kalau tak suka, takpayah baca. takpayah tengok. sebab kalau kau baca, kau tengok, kau yang sakit hati. kau yang rasa annoying. tegur baik baik. bukannya susah. orang tu dah memang salah, kau kutuk kutuk orang tu. jadi apa bezanya kau dengan dia?

kelima: manusia tak sempurna. dia pernah buat salah, tak bermaksud kau tak pernah buat salah. apa, kau pikir kau sempurna sangat? so, muhasabah diri banyak banyak. ada sebab sesuatu kejadian itu berlaku.

ok byee :D

p/s= mak aku kata, jangan carik pasal dengan orang kalau dia tak carik pasal dengan kita. kita boleh mintak maaf dekat Allah tapi belum tentu kita boleh mintak maaf dekat manusia.

Gua memang suka makan hati.

2011-02-27T05:12:00.000+08:00

aku meluat.

meluat dengan perangai manusia.

yang tak pernah berubah.

tak pernah sedar.

tak pernah nak amik serius.

cuma tahu,

kurang ajar.

bodoh sombong.

tak makan saman.

please.

aku dah cukup makan hati.

aku rasa hati aku dah sifar.

jangan pulak kau buat aku sampai takda hati.

baru kau tahu,

beza langit dengan bumi.

jangan sampai perubahan itu

memakan diri kau sendiri.

p/s= maaf. ada sesi luahan hati ke hati dengan bff tadi. later talk. bye.

Kenapa hobi dan hobby sama bunyinya?(2nd Vlog)

2011-02-26T03:05:00.001+08:00

Hobby; an activity or interest that is undertaken for pleasure or relaxation, typically done during one's leisure time.

i ada banyak hobi. tak kisahlah hobi tu berfaedah atau tak. bila sesuatu perkara tu dibuat time relaxation and korang suka buat benda tu, hobi lah namanya. hobi benda yang menyeronokkan. benda yang korang enjoy. bukan menyeksakan jiwa and korang tak buat hobi sebab nak reward. tapi kalau korang punya hobi mengulangkaji pelajaran, like reading chemical formulas or tons of boring words(marketing) itu i bagi tabik spring sama lu. lu sangat rare! :) i suka cuba benda baru. macam seni. dulu, time kecik kecik suka mewarna. kalau ada pertandingan or family day, mesti ayah and mama daftarkan nama i. selalu dapat pensel warna percuma. then, start suka melukis. tak kisahlah gambar kartun, anime or even people. semua i lukis. biasanya, kalau pergi kedai stationary, selalu singgah bahagian lukisan. tertarik dengan pensel warna 100 batang, crayon and poster colour buncho, sketch book and berus melukis. lepas tu, masuk sekolah menengah. dapat pulak guru kelas yang best gila, Puan Kartini. i miss her. seriously :( masa upper form, kira macam senior lah kan. so kira, macam sekolah tu kami yang punya. haha! time tu, cikgu pegang part hiaskan bilik guru. so dia tanya sape nak volunteer buat mural dekat dinding bilik guru tu. apa lagi. i pun kautlah geng i buat sekali. ahh, those memories :)

speaking of my geng, harini i ada date dengan one of my geng(fairasaecah). dia sekarang belajar dekat politeknik seberang prai. dia ada benda nak buat. so, pagi nanti i'll pick her up at kl sentral then meronggeng dekat kl. nanti dia sleepover dekat rumah sewa i. yeah! :D

ok sambung balik. bila dah masuk matrikulasi. muncul hobi baru which is design baju. actually, benda ni i dah lama teringin nak cuba buat. tapi tak berkesempatan. masa sekolah. mana cukup duit nak beli marker baju. sebatang RM4.50. matilah nak beli banyak banyak. kalau korang nak tengok design yang i dah buat, boleh klik SINI. and now, i dah start buat bisnes kecil kecilan. dapatlah 4-5 helai orang tempah. Alhamdulillah ;) so, there you go. my hobby. hobby you all apa? share lah dekat i :D

btw, this is my 2nd Vlog. kolaberasi bersama janjan. it is about our new hobby. well, sort of. maaf kualiti video tak berapa nak dslr. i guna samsung galaxy jer. so, enjoice! :D

so, macam mana? ada terpikir nak cuba hobi kami yang terbaru ni? kalau ya, jangan lupa share dekat kami ok! bagi link dekat comment tau tau :) kalau taknak, nak buat macam mana. takkan kami nak paksa pulak. yer dak? hehe. erh. i should get some sleep right now. nanti nak bangun awal. karang terlajak, kesian dekat bff tunggu lama dekat kl sentral. ok byee :D

Kau apa tahu.

2011-02-25T03:40:00.000+08:00

Aku sakit. Ada kau kisah?

Salam.

Malam ini mahu berpuitis.

Bukan tanda jiwa romantis.

Cuma mahu melakar ideas.

Jam berdetik.

Hati terdetik.

Mungkin aku pentingkan diri.

Mungkin kau terlalu menghakimi.

Bukan semua orang suka cara kita.

Tak semua tahu siapa diri kita.

Jangan kerana dek kau kenal aku baru setahun jagung,

kau menyimpul konklusi.

Membaris kata sinis dibibir merah.

Menunding jari bengkok tanda protes.

Mengherdik tanda amarah.

Menjeling juling macam kau is the best.

Hidup kena ada toleransi.

Baru dunia aman harmoni.

Kau boleh kecewa sekali.

Tak bermaksud aku kau empunya diri.

Bila perhubungan jadi taruhan.

Jangan kau cuba ungkitkan.

Buang perangai hodoh kau.

Baru jiwa tenteram.

Atau kau mahu kuasa magis?

Yang buat kau boleh lihat diri sendiri di mata sang pengemis.

Cukuplah dengan sandiwara.

Aku dah meluat.

Kau apa tahu.

p/s= 'Aku' bukan empunya blog.

Bytheway, HAHAHA means laugh.

2011-02-24T03:00:00.000+08:00

selamat petang semua! (bukan bermaksud hari tengah petang) hari ni, mood gembira *wink wink* hope berpanjanganlah mood happy ni. baru siok! ok. tak tak. kena ada sedih jugak sebab manusia ni kena ada rasa susah and sedih. kalau asyik happy jer memanjang, nanti jadi bebal pulak. sambung! i baru lepas rakam video untuk vlog i yang kedua. again with janjan. we're roommates y'alls! so, yeah. everything buat sama sama lah. ok, bukan everything. but literally. tadi tengok balik videos tu. serious lawak. bukan kami mak lawak(sebab kami perempuan) tapi sebab ada scene scene yang sangat haru orang penang kata, bukan ceq kata. kalau boleh letak full punya takda potong, sure i dah letak. bolehlah korang gelakkan kami sekuat hati. nak kata kami loser pun, kami terima =.= tapi video nya sangat panjang. sebab we all banyak gelak. so, kena potong jugak. dapatlah yang clean version punya nanti. tapi i tak edit lagi. sebab dah lewat. ada class pagi nanti. karang tak bangun pulak. nanti tak dapat jumpa brunomars *wink wink* hah, curious nak tau sape brunomars tu? dia adalah mamat yang hanya usha dari jauh saja. ayat sadis. but it's true ok. speechless sebenarnya. kalau tak, dah tegur dia dah hari tu. kan Marliyati Mohatar :) takpa. nanti ada jodoh kita ketemu lagi ya! :D so that i can do what i'm suppose to do. ok byee. selamat malam :D

oh btw, hari ni(khamis) i ada sesi bergambar with my classmates. finally. dah part 4 baru ada gambar class. haih. so, kena pakai santek santek. tak sabar! XD

hint: i suka melukis. you all? (:

Manusia, sememangnya buta.

2011-02-23T03:46:00.000+08:00

gelap.

hampir sejam mengadap komputer riba.

menganalisis mukabuku.

mencari idea.

menjiwai segala watak

dalam minda.

untuk dimuntahkan ke kanvas putih.

hakikat,

buntu.

tepu.

sesat.

faktor,

mentelaah komunikasi pemasaran.

sejenak.

tapi

kosong.

input sifar.

ah.

bosannya!

kalian.

maaf.

. . . .

idea!

manusia.

bila gosip tersebar.

bila auta dijaja.

bila pandangan pertama

menjadi taruhan.

ah, cepatnya kau percaya.

pantas sungguh kau menilai.

propa.

negatif.

mana positifnya?

atas dasar apa kau menghakimi

makhluk itu?

buta.

tuli.

anasir jahat.

cuba celik.

dan buang.

jangan jadi syaitan.

anasir baik.

simpan dalam hati.

bukan untuk jadi pekasam.

kau tahu apa yang aku tahu.

dan manusia,

tolong bijak.

otak jangan letak

celah ketiak.

tengik.

samalah macam fikiran kau.

akal kau.

hancur.

selamat malam.

Oh so randomzz (1st Vlog).

2011-02-20T19:18:00.000+08:00

"i take one shot for my pain, one shot for my sorrow.

i get messed up today, i'll be ok tomorrow"

this weekend i abiskan masa mengedit video saja. berjaga sampai pukul 6 pagi. teruk teruk. semua ni gara gara macam gelabah nak buat vlog kan (sorry sebab lambat publish. maaf maaf! >.<). itupun secara tak sengaja. tengah menggila dengan janjan, berkaraoke bagai. last last, decided nak buat vlog. kira kolaberasi lah kononnya. ok, bajet gila. abaikan. anywaaayyy, enjoy ya our video blog ni :) just an introduction. so that korang boleh kenal kami dengan lebih rapat. ececeh =.=

btw, muka i dalam video ni nampak tembam. sebab pakai snowcap kot?
apapun, ouh yeah! tembam :D haha!

ini pulak, so called mashup lah. lagu fav kami time melalak dalam bilik. sebenarnya banyak lagi lagu. tapi kira lagu lagu ni yang selalu diputarkan. we all nyanyi hancur. jadi lip sync jelah. eyh, lip sync pun memerlukan teknik yang betul tau! jangan kata benda ni senang pulak. hehe. ok lah, enjoice! :D

sila abaikan shawl yang tergantung kat belakang tu =.=

so, macam mana? best tak best tak? :D cakap best! *paksa* ok, fine. bye!

p/s= maaf pada yang rasa annoying. kami manusia biasa :)

pp/s= byebye rambut lama! XD

We'll be alright.

2011-02-19T05:43:00.000+08:00

it's 0532 now and i'm still awake. what the? tahu lah weekend kan. ikut sedap jer nak tidur pukul berapa. well, sebenarnya i baru sudah mengedit video. it's a video blog to be exact. for short, we called Vlog. itupun tak siap lagi. baru suku. dah tak larat dah. buang masa cari installer untuk convert video punya pasal. adeh. vlog ni pun i collaborate dengan janjan. kira our first vlog lah. ececeh, dah pandai dah nak bervideo video ni. ikut trend ok. hehe :P dahlah. taknak bebel panjang. kepala pun dah pening. nak tidur. kalau dah tidur time ni, jangan haraplah nak bangun awal kan. so, here it goes. tapi ni sneak peek jer tau. enjoice! :D

Dan bila idea datang.

2011-02-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

ehem ehem. ada nampak kelainan tak dekat blog ni? yup. new header and layout. sangat simple sebab malas nak guna photoshop. just guna paint saja. dah lama dah sebenarnya nak tukar header baru. tapi masa tak berkesempatan and idea tak datang lagi. setelah bertungkus lumus memerah keringat nak siapkan header ni, akhirnya terhasil lah,

ini!

see. i told you it's simple. ok like duh~ macamlah korang tak nampak masa bukak blog ni kan. well, anggaplah lepas korang baca ni baru header tu muncul kat atas ok! hehe :D actually, warna merah tak melambangkan apa apa. maksud i, i bukan kipas-susah-mati terhadap warna merah. cuma macam banyak gadget i yang warna merah. so, i just sesuaikan jer. taknaklah nanti cacamarba pulak kan. korang nak baca pun jadi annoying. oh merah kan melambangkan keberanian and sexy. ececeh, nak cakap kau hot lah tu kan. blah! =.= kalau you all rasa nak provoke or like or whatsoever pasal header ni or even pasal blog ni sendiri, silalah komen yer :)

ok, byee :D

p/s= btw, gambar awek pakai shawl tu lukis sendiri. kthxbai.

Learn from mistakes, not repeat the same mistakes.

2011-02-18T02:24:00.000+08:00

i know some of you might think this is really silly yet quite disturbing. you love someone so much, you gave all your heart and soul to them, you seem to ignore all the shitty things about them and you being so careless about everything. i mean, you don't even care to take care of yourself. despite all that matter, you aren't really aware the consequences you would be facing for the future. you think you can handle it because you are a strong person. wrong. if you think you are strong, well you just playing god with yourself. who wouldn't thought that someone you love so much can leave you forever. me neither.

we are human and human aren't perfect. they make mistakes. silly mistakes. but it doesn't mean we have to regret all the mistakes. mistakes is a process of learning. learn not to make the same mistake again, not learn how to repeat that same mistake. if you feel your love and sacrifice doesn't worth it all for them and the feedback they been given is less then you give, don't be so stupid to ignore all the nonsense. god give you brain to think. do something.

there's a wisdom in every action. there's a reason in every mistakes that we did. learn from it (:

Pretty Girl Rock.

2011-02-17T13:48:00.000+08:00

Uh uh uh aahh uh uh

I can do the pretty girl rock rock

Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock

Now what’s your name

My name is Keri, I’m so very

Fly oh my is a little bit scary

Boys wanna marry looking at my deri

And you can stare but if you touch then imma beri

Pretty as a picture

Sweeter than a swisher

Mad cause I’m cuter than the girl that is with ya

I ain’t gotta talk about it baby you can see it

But if you want ill be happy to repeat it

My name is Keri, I’m so very

Fly oh my is a little bit scary

Boys wanna marry looking at my deri

And you can stare but if you touch it ima beri

Pretty as a picture Sweeter than a swisher

Mad cause I’m cuter than the girl that is with ya

I can talk about it cause I know that I’m pretty

If you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in,

No question that this girl’s a 10

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful.

My walk my talk the way I dress

It’s not my fault so please don’t trip

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful

Aye, now do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock rock

All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock

Now were you at,

If your looking for me you can catch me

Cameras flashing, daddies turned his head as soon as I passed him

Girls think I’m conceded cause I think I’m attraction

Don’t worry about what I think why don’t you ask him

Owoaah!

Get yourself together don’t hate(don't do it),

jealous is the ugliest trait(ohh, don't do it)

I can talk about it cause I know that I’m pretty

If you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in,

No question that this girl’s a 10

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful.

My walk my talk the way I dress

It’s not my fault so please don’t trip

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful

Doing the pretty girl rock rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Do the pretty girl rock rock

All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Get along with your pretty girl rock rock rock

Still show me your pretty girl rock rock rock

All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Sing it with me now

All eyes on me when I walk in,

No question that this girl’s a 10

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful.

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful

. My walk my talk the way I dress

It’s not my fault so please don’t trip

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful [x2]

Owoahaha!

Blog setahun jagung.

2011-02-14T04:33:00.001+08:00

blog ni dah makin dikenali ramai. bukanlah kata blog ni peymes macam blog Ben Ashaari, Maria Helena or even Hanis Zalikha (awak dah jarang update. kenapa haa?). oh tidak tidak. followers pun belum mencecah 100 orang *malu* sebenarnya nak ucap terima kasih khas untuk Sahabat Blogger serta Bloglarian juga rakan rakan blogger yang telah menyumbangkan tempat untuk mempromote blog tak seberapa hot ini. so, kemungkinan dan kebarangkalian benda benda yang tak diingini juga mungkin akan berlaku di atas risiko yang telah dipilih dalam mempromosikan blog ini.

btw, mempromosikan blog bukan bermaksud nak tambahkan duit nuffnang tu. jangan risau, saya ada 50 sen jer dalam acc tu. nak beli air pun tak lepas. sedih. just nak kongsi cerita and pendapat and luahan hati jer :) sudah. mari kita mulakan!

1) bakal dikondem or sudah pun dikondem.

bila kita menyuarakan sesuatu pendapat sendiri tentang sesuatu perkara, sesetengah pihak mungkin tidak bersetuju ataupun mungkin jugak akan berkata sedemikian rupa, "WTF kau cakap camtuh an!" dalam erti kata lain yang mungkin dipahami oleh remaja remaja rebel seperti anda ialah melantun. jadi perlu diingatkan semula, 'ini belog sayaaa' (bukan link HZ). so, part mana yang kamu kamu dan kamu tak paham? tak salah untuk menasihati, tapi bukan menjatuhkan. kita sama sama bloggers tak patut ada sifat begitu. kalau kau bukan bloggers pun tak boleh ada perangai buruk macam tu. understang?

2) haters; i hate you eventho i tak kenal you.

sesetengah orang (bukan orang tu kena potong jadi setengah), maybe takda life sampai dia sangap sangat nak amik port pasal life orang lain. dia jealous/cemburu bila orang lagi up dari dia sebab dia tak dapat jadi orang tu and dia takda apa yang orang tu ada. mengikut teori serta kajian dari blogger Latalitalitamplom, beliau mengatakan bahawa haters jugak turut disamaertikan dengan anon atau lebih dikenali sebagai anonymous. mereka bersuara lantang, tapi mereka pengecut. so, janganlah jadi haters. jadilah likers *wink wink*

3)post entry disalah ertikan.

kita sebenarnya nak kata macam ni tapi orang pikir kita kata macam tu. lepas tu, mulalah perang comment. so, kalau anda rasa anda tak tahu/paham apa yang tersurat dan tersirat pasal post entry tu, wajarlah anda untuk menanyakan apa sebabnya. jadi, tidaklah berlaku salah paham disitu :)

blog saya mungkin tidak seserious blogserius, mungkin tidak sefluent englishnya macam Hanis Zalikha, mungkin jugak tidak sesempoi blog Maria Helena, juga mungkin tidak sepopular Ben Ashaari. tapi saya tahu blog saya adalah saya. cewah! macam mana tujuan asal saya masa buat blog ni macam tu jugaklah tujuan dia sampai bila bila, which is i'm just an ordinary girl who thinks blog is just for the sake of having fun and making something awesome from it.

ok byee :D

UiTM; sekolah budak jahat.

2011-02-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

so, be awesome.

post ni actually khas untuk semua budak UiTM. what do you think of this conversation?

"study mana?"

"Uitm Shah Alam"

"ouh, skolah budak jahat. hahaha!"

" =.= "

hello. i tau lah you boleh hantar anak anak you dekat private school sebab you orang kaya. i tau you boleh hantar diorang dekat overseas pun. but let me tell you, kalau sekolah tuh hebat sampai masuk surat khabar pun, tak semestinya anak anak you nanti akan berjaya kalau diorang buat hal. nak compare sangat UiTM dengan universiti lain kenapa? tengok sikit budak universiti mana yang berjaya sekarang ni. you nak blame sampai cakap skolah budak jahat. apa, sebab semua budak melayu? budak melayu tak bagus. abis, you tu bukan melayu ker? semua universiti samalah. ada baik, ada jahat. i tak nafikan yang memang ada budak sosial. tapi bukan semua. macam i kata tadi, semua universiti sama. ada baik, ada jahat. btw, zaman 'skolah budak jahat' dah lama berlalu lah. tu zaman you muda muda yelah. so takpayah nak blame UiTM sangat. takpayah nak busuk hati sangat. takpayah nak kondem orang sangat. you can't be to sure because you don't know what happen next. you cakap UiTM skolah jahat, sekali anak anak you nanti masuk sana baru tahu. then, you nilai lah mana yang baik, mana yang buruk.

ok, byee :D

You don't make life. Life makes you.

2011-02-11T07:02:00.000+08:00

first thing first, i'm at home. yup, my home. because our beloved VC gave us two days off for UiTM Shah Alam and Puncak only. woot woot! all the lecturers have conferences so automatically we don't have classes to attend. so i can extend my holiday till saturday. sunday i have module. damn. it would be awesome if i can extend my holiday until tuesday. but it just a dream. heh. second, i don't like people who ditch other people for no reasons. plus, the ditcher are now happily ever after and the person who been ditched are miserable like hell. don't you have feelings? do you think by doing this is ok? it is so not ok. it is cruel. third, i hate backstabber. especially when it came on a relationship. dude, it's not cool when you take your friend's ex without permission. it's rude plus this is a friend rules. i know she's an ex. but atleast try to not ruin your friend's life. he's been hurt enough. don't make him hurt more. you should ask him first whether this is ok. if it's not ok, then you need to wait a lil bit. love is not an easy things to be removed. so please respect him. i know, eventually he'll be ok with it. forth, i don't understand why people are so stupid sometimes. you've been hurt so many times with the same person but you never learn your lesson. it's like you eat your own poop. meaning; throwing unwanted things, then take it back with no shame. and in this case, you are that poop. so please. don't be that poop. don't drop your dignity. because it's priceless. once you drop it, people will constantly poop on your face. fifth, waiting is torture. seriously, my heart is pounding so fast because of Bruno Mars. i'm hoping for this. i cannot wait any longer for the tickets to be sell. i'm afraid the tickets will sold out. someone, please tell me where and when i can buy the tickets. i will appreciate it :) sixth, the practical thingy is actually for part 5 only to registered the form. you know, the previous post that i was talking about. so i have another one semester to figure it out where i'm going on my practical later. seventh, i'm craving for cakes right now. someone, anyone, a cheese cake would be nice :D eighth, i hope 'our' plans will come true sooner or later. ninth, i should get some sleep right now. it's 648am for god sake! tenth, byee :D

because people tend to make it more difficult than before. aren't they?

Can't handle the pressure.

2011-02-08T03:13:00.000+08:00

i am so tired. physically and mentally. mostly on mentally. blame it on myself. sape suruh tangguh kerja. kan dah kelam kabut siapkan assignments. tapi nasib baik i ada group yang sangat best. sepakat membawa berkat. tolong menolong amalan mulia. ok, you know what i mean right? ngee :D

erh, i should get on my bed now. i've got class at 830 am =.= dah pasang niat nak buat buat terlajak pagi nanti. tapi, tak jadilah. sebab saya kan budak baik :) HAHA! oh yeah, today i ada presentation with my group in services class. wish us luck ok! :D

seriously, i should sleep now. i mean, RIGHT NOW. ok, byee :D

should i or shouldn't i?

p/s= saya dah jadi Sahabat Blogger *wink wink*

Awkwardness.

2011-02-06T05:36:00.001+08:00

semalam kenduri kakak sedara i. congrats kak ima! well, she's a wife now :) so, my dad pergi awal settle kan semua benda and dia jadi penyambut tetamu since he's the one who volunteer i guess. part of his job jugak lah. sebab my cuzz punya ayah passed away which is my dad's brother. dah lama dah. masa i darjah 4 kot. can't remember. anywayy, the wedding went well. Alhamdulillah. today belah pihak lelaki pulak. but i tak pergi. mama kata boleh excused hehe. alasan sebab nak packing barang balik shah alam. ok, seriously sangat tak ready nak balik sana. dengan assignments yang tak beri kasih sayang dengan sempurna. meaning, sekadar bawak balik rumah untuk show off dekat orang lain yang "weh, aku cuti mid sem ni nak siapkan assignment jer". dusta semua tu. jangan percaya. dah, diam.

actually i nak cerita pasal incident yang berlaku tengahari semalam. ke'akward'an yang sangat obvious terpampang dekat muka i. masa otw nak ke rumah kenduri, i terserempak dengan kereta yang i memang taknak terserempak pun. tambah lagi, kewujudan makhluk dalam kereta tu yang membuatkan i jadi tak keruan. boleh pulak dengan tak semena menanya mama dengan confident dia slow kan kereta untuk melihat makhluk yang berada dalam kereta tu. and i was like, whaaattt? so, bila dah benda ada depan mata, takkan lah tak terpandangkan. semestinya akan terpandang walaupun sekilas. then mama cakap, "tuh minah kan?" and i just balas, "uh, haah". fyi, i can't put her name. because i know someone close to her will read this. serious rasa sangat awkward and tak tahu nak buat macam mana. and i know she saw me. yup, i do.

fai and fara. dia adalah minah yang i cerita dekat you all. you know, incident dekat pasar malam tuh. uh well, i tak nak tak nak. terserempak jugak dengan dia. nasib baik masing masing dalam kereta. kalau depan mata, phew! hope not. because i can't handle the situation right now. i just can't. and once again, you make my eyes burst into tears. for how many times, i can't remember. i loss my count. so, yeah. thanks :') bye.

wow. you are really good at it.

Renjatan ketika tidur.

2011-02-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

korang pernah kena renjatan masa tidur tak? bukan renjatan yang melibatkan elektrik yang dialirkan ke badan korang yang membolehkan korang mati dengan serta merta. renjatan ni selalunya terjadi bila korang dah hampir ke alam lagi satu, iaitu alam tidur/separa sedar/tak sedar langsung. biasanya kita dah hampir nak lelap, tiba tiba kita macam direnjat. macam ada orang sentuh kaki kita. macam ada orang sergah kita masa kita tengah tidur. ok. sangat tak cool. sebab seriously, kita akan rasa something yang sangat uncomfortable. lagi satu, kita punya aktiviti tidur pun terganggu. so, korang ada pernah rasa tak benda ni? i boleh dikatakan selalu lah jugak. but still boleh control. btw, mintak maaf sebab jarang sangat update. only in the mood nak berblogwalking saja for now. sorry and byee :D

yeah damn you're right!

The Other Side.

2011-02-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

Truth of the matter is I'm complicated
You're as straight as they come
You go 'bout your day baby
While I had from the sun

It's better if you don't understand
Cause you wont know what it's like
Til you try

You know I've been waiting on the other side
And you, all you gotta do is cross the line
I could wait a whole life time
But you just gotta decide
You know I
I've been waiting on the other, waiting on the other side

We would live forever
Who could ask for more
You could die if you wanted
But baby what for

It's better if you don't understand
And you won't know what it's like
Til you try

You know I've been waiting on the other side
And you, all you gotta do is cross the line
I could wait a whole life time
But you just gotta decide
You know I
I've been waiting on the other, waiting on the other side

If they say life's a dream
Call this insomnia
Cause this ain't Wonderland
It damn sure ain't Narnia
And once you cross the line
You can't change your mind
Yeah I'm a monster
But I'm no Frankenstein
And quite frankly
I've been feeling insane in between my eyes
I really cant explain what I feel inside
If you knew what I was you's would run and hide
Many have tried to go into the night
Cross over the line and come back alive
But that's the price we pay when we living on the other side

You know I've been waiting on the other side
And you, all you gotta do is cross the line
I could wait a whole life time
But you just gotta decide
You know I
I've been waiting on the other, waiting on the other side

It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand

Future.

2011-02-01T19:08:00.000+08:00

currently not. entahlah. susah nak cakap. nanti kalau cakap kata tak bersyukur pulak. so, baik kita terima dengan redha walaupun kadang kadang terasa jugak diri ini selalu mengeluh. semua tu rezeki kan. yang kat atas sana tu memang dah susun elok elok dah perjalanan kita. cuma diri sendiri je yang kena pandai pilih jalan yang lurus and benar. manusia ni mana pernah puas dengan apa yang dia ada. bukan apa, sebenarnya yang pasal melalut ni sebab macam nervous and confuse nak pilih company for my practical nanti. i think i nak pilih company yang macam more ke 'creative' side. i mean, kalau macam celcom or digi or maxis, tu kan semuanya syarikat telekomunikasi. i nak macam karangkraf ker. so, takdelah stress sangat kalau kerja nanti (kot?). but still i nak carik tempat praktikal yang dekat dengan rumah i. oh and dapat elaun for sure hehe. area selangor jugak. save lah budget kan. and i'm sure time tu i dah ada kereta sendiri. ok, perasan. tapi ada ura ura lah. hee :D anywaayy, serious i dalam dilema nak pilih dua tempat pilihan tu. tolong! :O

ok, byee :D

p/s= semalam sleepover dekat rumah Fara bersama Fai sekali ♥
p/p/s= mata belah kiri merah. masuk habuk. sakit :(

Muka teruja.

2011-01-29T15:54:00.000+08:00

nak tahu sebab apa muka saya macam ni?

sebab ni!

SCREAM NOW! aaahhhh~ ! :O am so gonna go to his concert. kalau takda aral melintang. amin amin. btw, siapa punya concert ni kan? well, of course lah my Bruno Mars. hehe XD but the tix dia tak open for sale lagi. so i need to wait, impatiently. yang pasti date dia sangat cantiklah for now. i terlepas concert Maroon 5 and JB. so, this. definitely akan pergi! for more info, check this ok :)

ok, byee :D *excited*

Our world needs more people like him.

2011-01-29T15:04:00.000+08:00

i cry.

enough said.

Home and tired.

2011-01-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

yup, i'm home. exhausted gila. semua pakat nak balik cuti raya cina. yang tak raya pun sibuk nak balik awal awal macam i ni. hehe. well, dah cuti kan. one week *big grin* as usual, ktm sangat padat macam sardin. semua ni sebab train delay. memang sangat sangat pack. nak tercabut tangan i pegang beg. rasa nak menangis jer dalam train tu. terseksa i punya mental and physical. huhu. ok, cuti seminggu ni for sure akan tv marathon, movie marathon, youtube marathon, facebooking, tweet tweet, blogging. assignments? ok. assignments jugak =.= oh and lepaking and slumber party with bff. yeah! :D

ok,byee :D

Teramat rindu.

2011-01-26T16:21:00.000+08:00

saya mimpi kamu semalam. mimpi yang perit tapi indah rasanya. kamu mintak maaf. saya jual mahal. tapi dalam hati saya hanya Yang Maha Esa saja yang tahu. kita menangis. menangis sakan macam satu bahagian dalam jiwa kita yang telah lama hilang muncul kembali. menangis kegembiraan. perasaan teruja. semua ada. perasaan saya tak dapat diungkapkan dengan kata kata bila kamu datang jumpa saya dan peluk saya dalam tangisan meminta maaf. bertapa kamu menyesal selama ini apa yang kamu lakukan terhadap saya. bertapa bahagianya saya bila dapat tahu yang kamu masih hargai persahabatan ini. bertapa kecewanya saya kerana semua ini hanyalah mimpi. mimpi semata mata. saya dipaksa bangun. hilang semuanya. kalau boleh saya nak terus tidur dan mahu mimpi ini berterusan. ya, hanya mimpi.

saya terlalu rindukan kamu, sahabat :'(

Repost: For Twitter fans.

2011-01-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

do not make yourself attach with this thingy.

it can harm you.

seriously =.=

especially to you, myaae.

HAHA!

I LOVE SUPERNEWS!

I am totally into it. WTF?!

2011-01-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

ok. i know i agak ketinggalan zaman nak guna aplikasi ni. but atleast i guna kan. apekah? well, it's Twitter. laugh now =.= actually i taknak pun buat diri i terjebak dengan Twitter because i think it is funny for me to use this application. macam artis pulak every sec nak kena update. like people would care what i am doing. ahaha. then, mia ajak buat Twitter. just for the sake of doing silly tweets. so, semalam i bukak lah balik acc Twitter i yang dah berkurun lamanya. buat masa dulu tu pun untuk suka suka. daftar then macam tu jelah. tak usik apa apa. maka bermulalah, peperangan didalam Twitter bersama mereka. including janjan and atien. pagi tadi dalam lab bukan focus pun apa yang sir ajar. dok sibuk tweets with each other. padahal duduk sebelah sebelah jer. haha. kelakar! :D uh, well. i hope i tak addicted lah dengan Twitter ni macam i addicted dengan Facebook. tu dah tak dapat diselamatkan dah =.= kepada malamutatie, tolong buat acc Twitter anda dengan segera! arahan dari semua. sekian terimakasih. byee :D

sedapnya cupcakes ni XD
btw, add me dekat Twitter ok.
saenadia
ngee.

I am superman and i drink milk.

2011-01-24T02:42:00.000+08:00

hi citizen. would you like me to save your life?

hi bloggers :) so, yeah. last Saturday my classmates (well, not all) and i went to Bukit Cerakah at Shah Alam. for those yang tak tahu apa yang ada dekat sana, meh i nak bagitau. eceh, macam dah selalu pergi pulak kan. padahal baru first time pergi sana. *malu* ok, Bukit Cerakah sebenarnya tempat riadah. kita boleh cycling, jogging, walking semua lah. and ada tempat menarik macam taman haiwan, menara tinggi, kolam ikan, and paling best rumah 4 musim. fyi, sekarang musim sejuk/winter. i excited gila bila dapat masuk sana. bukan selalu kita bercakap keluar asap kan. hee :D kalaulah bawak mr lumix mungkin bolehlah snap gambar yang agak berkualiti tinggi sikit sampai boleh nampak asap keluar dari mulut. mr lumix dekat rumah. so, snap guna galaxy saja.

tengok muka teruja kami berjalan hampir 1 jam.

long story short, we had fun. almost semua tempat pit stop kami untuk bergambar. bayangkan ada 5 camera kot. satu camera gambar nak dekat 300 keping. kalau tambah semua? you do the math. belum masuk dah bergambar macam artis. macam budak budak pun ada tengok we all ni. haha :D

lepas tu, dalam pukul 3 semua gerak pergi lunch dekat Paksu Corner Sekyen 16. oh btw, breakfast i dengan janjan yang masak. rajinkan? padan muka pergi volunteer buat apa =.= nvm lah. memang suka masak masak ni. heh. and semuanya 3 kereta. tengah melantak lunch, tiba tiba diorang tanya lepas ni nak pergi tengok wayang tak dekat Jusco Bukit Raja. pergh. budak budak ni tak reti penat ker? semua macam memang tak tahu penatkan maka bergeraklah kami ke Bukit Raja pulak pergi tengok Khurafat. tix pukul 7pm. and sangat mahal. RM14. gila. memang tak enjoy lah i next week.

ok, preview untuk cerita Khurafat. sangat tak berbaloi untuk harga RM14. filem seram Malaysia yang sangat tipikal. i tak puas jerit sebab tak seram. tak mencabar langsung untuk i. eceh. berlagak. but, seriously i tak tahu part mana yang orang kata "filem ni terbaekkk!". seriously, mana? but on sec thought (spoiler), agak creepy bila Johan dukung jenazah yang dekat dalam hutan tu. i terbayang macam mana keadaan tu bila jadi betul betul. fuh! part funny pulak. i diapit oleh Atien and Fyda. and both takut cerita hantu. memang kelakar lah kan tengok gelagat diorang. yang Atien ni siap nak balik. haha. part paling kelakar, Fyda kena gelak satu panggung. dalam movie tu (spoiler lagi), scene Johan excident and dia pegang bahu dia. yang Fyda ni ingat tangan hantu yang pegang Johan tu. dengan tak semena mena, dia jerit. suara dia je dalam wayang tu. abis satu panggung gelak. nasib baik gelap, tak nampak muka. we all yang tahu ni, semua bantai gelak abis. dah tak jadi takut dah. haha. lawak lawak.

overall, i had a great time with them. seriously, i do :) hope dapat lagi lah macam ni. maybe pergi travelling jauh jauh pulak ker kan kan. hee. ok byee :D

us :)

I know you miss me.

2011-01-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

hello world. did you miss me? :D i miss you guys ok! well, i am back on track right now. yup. blogging for sure. broadband janjan dah bayar. thank you :) lepas ni, bolehlah blogwalking you all punya blog kan kan kan. suka tak? so, yesterday i went out hiking with my classmates at Bukit Cerakah. yeah, so called hiking lah kan. attire pun tak betul. macam pergi shopping pulak. but overall memang seronok. and sangat penat. kaki i dah lenguh. ni gagah lagi nak update semata mata untuk you all semua. cewah! later, i will tell you guys about my weekend with them ok. i've no pictures yet to upload. plus mata pun dah kuyu ni.

btw, rasa sangat macam 'damn damn shit' sebab i've got news update about Bruno Mars from urusmok and he got it from junkonline last Friday. guess what guys, Bruno will come and perform at Indonesia before he landed at Phili. yup. serious 'damn damn shit' kan? and benda yang i harapkan. i mean, sangat harapkan tak tercapai. frust. but life must go on and learn from mistakes. rezeki takda. terima saja lah.

oh yayang Bruno. bila lah nak datang Malaysia ni?

sleep well, bloggers. bye. no smiley today.

ok, kidding. byee :D

I don't do jokes.

2011-01-21T14:29:00.000+08:00

i am sorry for lack in updating.

i have barriers.

seriously i do.

ok, byee :D

oh btw,

i am happy now.

literally.

p/s= i ada baju superman. ngee :D

Girl Most Wanted.

2011-01-18T09:52:00.002+08:00

everyone.

look at this picture.

then, focus on atie on Myspace.

yup. Marliyati Mohatar.

HAHAHA!

p/s= atie, ehem. 'hang out' yer? hehe.

It's just cruel.

2011-01-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

frust. serious frust. i tak harap pun dekat benda tu. but atleast, i have chance and i know i can go to that place. meaning, i'm not busy with other things and dia tak clash dengan apa apa. Then suddenly, baru dapat tau from my penta Cera Anuar yang those weeks are exam weeks. sentap jap. damn damn. why lah buat time tu. gah! ok fine. i know time Paramore tu pun exam month jugak. but study week. so, still boleh skip lah ke sana. yang ni memang on exam weeks kan. plus i tak tahu my exam papers punya date. nanti dah book tix sekali tak dapat pergi. memang lagi frust lah kan. i don't wanna take risk on that. my penta suggest pergi Disney On Ice dekat Bukit Jalil. its early April. 1st untul 3rd. dah tengok tix dia. paling murah RM65+ for early bird. well, gonna think of that :)

i ajak urusmok, but he's like "i rather see bieber than disney on ice" and he added some more " its gonna filled with pedo" FINE urus. fine. oh and you such a fat fat devil ok! dah. merajuk.

byebye Maroon 5. byebye Justin Bieber.

sobsob.

p/s= ok mok. bersin banyak tak? HAHA.

What's up doo-wops and hooligans!

2011-01-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

*scream* BRUNO! *scream* aahhhh :O guess what hooligans, yes. Bruno Mars are finally come to Asia. scream now! oh well, i guess i'm the only one who have crush on Bruno like crazy. whatever. so, yup. Bruno will perform at Phili on 7th and 8th April. WTF?! damn damn damn. Philippines?! :O too far for me. haih. *crushing* oh Bruno, why you didn't come to Malaysia first? WHY? urgh! please come to Malaysia ok. i am begging youuuu. my heart will burst into tiny lil pieces if you don't come to Malaysia. fo serious! so, you better come ok! *wink wink*

credit to my concert buddy, urusmok coz bagitau pasal ni (: we have a plan. supposedly nak ajak dia teman pergi tengok konsert JB dekat Stadium Merdeka this April and he was like "jatuhla standard i nanti =.=" haha. ok fine. saja je ajak. i know you won't like it. then he said, "pergi tengok Maroon 5 lah instead". and i was like "bila bila?" oh ok. April jugak but the tix are so expensive. lagi mahal dari Paramore. what? fine. kena kumpul duit dari sekarang. but i'm not sure whether dapat pergi ke tak nanti. we will see ya my concert buddy. ehehe.

byee :D

melting

p/s= for more info about Bruno yayang, check this and about Maroon 5, check this.

You snotty little jerk.

2011-01-15T01:11:00.001+08:00

thanks for being in my life for like a month.

i appreciated what you did to me before.

curse you for what you did to me after.

i'm sorry for being honest with you.

and you are sorry for yourself because

I AM TOO GOOD FOR YOU.

well, goodluck on finding a perfect 'friend' for your perfect so called life.

i am sure you will find it.

keep on hurting woman's heart.

you are really great at those job :)

oh yeah, please keep ignoring my calls and my messages.

like i will not bump into you in the faculty.

duh~

btw,

i am serious on making friends.

i mean, when you become my friend

i will make sure that you ARE really my friend.

get it?

you don't get it?

auuww~ pity you :( NOT!

byee :D

p/s= just to be clear, 'being in my life' means being my friend. ok?

p/s/s= thanks bff because of your awareness. felt relieved ;)

p/s/s/s= so long sucker!

And because i wait for 'this'.

2011-01-13T15:53:00.000+08:00

"babe, are you ok?"

"hell yeah, i'm ok!"

"you lie. i know you're not ok."
"i'm ok lah. tak nampak ker i happy je ni?" *smile
"i'm your bestfriend. i've known you since kindergarten. don't lie to me"
"yes. i'm not." *cry
"i'm here babe. don't cry" *hugs

i need something to distract myself.

"you keep quiet without any words. thanks"

The process of shit.

2011-01-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

i need a shoulder to cry on. i need a person that listen to me. listen to my problem, eventhough the problems is not like 'the world is going to end'. i need people around me so that i can forget all this nonsense. i need a friends that understand my condition. i need my bff to support me. to handle my feeling. to cure my heart. i don't exaggerate my problem. it just happen. maybe its my fault. i don't know. damn. i'm looking forward for this. but, something happen. and i don't like it. my life is getting shit-er day by day. ok. kidding. half of it. bersyukur lah sae' oi.

i need you, you and YOU :(

All i need is time.

2011-01-11T00:16:00.001+08:00

yes, i would die for you, baby. but you won't do the same.

kalau lah ada jejaka yang macam Bruno Mars or Bruno Mars punya lagu, memang dah suruh mama ayah masuk minang. terbalik? lantak lah. tak laku pun empunya diri ni. adeh, sadis. lately ni, asyik melayan lagu grenade jer. meaning? haa, pi dengar lagu tu yer. repeat and then repeat and repeat some more. melayan perasaan sampai menangis. memang takda life. haih. serious dah fall in love dengan Bruno Mars ni. sorry lah janjan. hari hari dengar lagu grenade. hehe. petang tadi tengok movie A Walk To Remember. i know most of you guys dah pernah tengok. lagi lagi juyapina tu. kan kan kan. ngee :D i really love bila part yang Landon suruh Jamie tengok star yang dia namakan atas nama Jamie tu sendiri. how sweet is that! and i cried when Landon proposes Jamie eventhough he knows Jamie have leukemia. true love man. mana nak cari? dalam movie and lagu je. because life is not perfect. cliche. but that's the truth.

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.

It does not take offense and is not resentful.

We are friends.

2011-01-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

jangan salah paham. kami takda pape. sekadar kawan sahaja and tak lebih dari itu. tolong jangan beranggapan sebegitu rupa. kawan sekadar menolong kawan. kawan sekadar meneman kawan. kawan sekadar kawan. i don't think we will falling in love with each other. don't ask why because i just know it :)

Away.

2011-01-09T14:56:00.000+08:00

off to shah alam.

baby boo~ sabar ok :)

i singgah care4 sat.

byee :D

p/s= masih menahan nafsu. buat buat menyampah. good sae'! well done.

Lying.

2011-01-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

i wish you know how i feel towards you.

sigh.

Pretending i wasn't even care.

2011-01-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

i'm home.

gonna finish it my work.

supposed taknak balik this week

but, atas dasar masih ada rasa dalam hati ni.

korbankan jugak.

rasa macam sangat fuck up gila.

dah. jangan nak pujuk ker apa.

serious ni.

btw, secara jujurnya.

rasa sedikit frust bila dengar perkataan tu dari mulut dia.

oh well, what can i do.

takda rezeki.

ok, byee.

Be patient.

2011-01-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

slow down, calm down.

don't worry, don't hurry.

trust the process.

be patient. don't be pathetic.

Dear bloggers.

2011-01-05T16:09:00.000+08:00

i nak mintak maaf dekat semua followers i baik yang follow secara public or silent. sebab i tak dapat nak bw you all punya blog selalu. i ada kekangan nak online. memandangkan i dah ada kat s.alam and i online hanya sekadar menumpang kasih broadband janjan, my roomies saja. maaf ya :(

oh and terima kasih dekat you all semua yang sudi jenguk and follow blog i. walaupun i tau blog i taklah sehebat blog Hanis Zalikha mahupun blog Ben Ashaari tuh. btw, i tak kenal pun diorang sape. i tau pun dari kawan kawan i. and i rasa tak perlu nak kenal semua blogger blogger yang hebat ni. i mean, kira benda wajib tahu if kita nak jadi seorang blogger. sebab tujuan utama i buat blog pun bukan untuk popular or dikenali ramai. itu just extra jer bila kita buat blog. i buat blog just untuk kongsi apa yang i rasa or berlaku in daily life. sekadar meluahkan something apa yang terbuku ni. cewah! haha :D

i appreciate sangat dekat sape sape yang comment post i or even like. i jenis baca semua comment orang and i akan reply balik. wait, i mesti reply. lagi lagi, dekat shout mix tuh. suka gila bila tengok you all comment :D so kalau sape sape yang pernah comment dekat post i, check balik. i reply comment you all ;) and if i tak reply, meaning i terlepas pandang. sorry for that.

i tak follow you all tak bermakna i tak baca blog korang. everyone yang tinggalkan link dekat shout mix tu semua i usha. tengok blog korang memang hebat. followers semua ratus ratus. tahniah untuk itu :D if korang bw dekat blog i, please leave your comment dekat shout mix. sebab i nak tau sangat sape yang bw dekat blog i. you tak follow pun takpe. i tak insist pun. and tinggalkan link jugak ok. i pulak nak bw dekat blog korang :D

sorry and thank you. byee :D

p/s= HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA ;) SWEET 21. LOVE YOU OK! hadiah i akan bagi. you tak mintak pun i memang akan bagi. but you kena sabar ok! hee :D

You spend thinking you are alone.

2011-01-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

do you think this is funny? i don't think so. you blow a chance that i give to you. you don't even try, so how come you can't do it. how come you feels like you are not the one. i care for you. and you know it. but, instead. i don't know how to describe it. easy word, i feel. hurt. it's like, a little scratch in my heart. it will remain there until you put some gamat. and i need you to put it, not anyone else.

and now, you have made your point. you want me to understand. so, yeah. i will. eventually. i know you won't make me happy. just like what you have said to me.thanks. for everything. do not worry about me. i'm ok :)

He is the one.

2011-01-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

i don't think he's the one.

if i'm wrong, prove it to me.

Sem 4.

2011-01-03T11:50:00.002+08:00

1st day untuk sem 4. satu class dah lepas. hampeh. siap punya awal pagi tadi. class pukul 10.30 pagi, bangun pukul 9 pagi. semangat tahun baru punya pasal kan. sekali, lect tak masuk. bagus bagus. and we thought, well half of us, today ada satu class jer. rupanya ada dua class. lagi satu class pukul 12.30 tengahari. wow! spoil kan aje. kalau tak dah boleh pergi shopping dah. ahaha. and now ada dekat ptar, bukan study untuk sem baru. tapi update blog. bagus bagus. timetable asyik bertukar jer. tak tau mana satu yang betul. but so far, paling tak best hari jumaat. we all full day kot. sampai pukul 5 petang. takdapat nak balik rumah awal. heh. ok lah, later will update lagi. maklumlah, dah tak boleh nak 24/7 kan =.= so, sempat update dekat mana mana jer. thank god ada galaxy. eceh, berlagak sikit :P bolehlah online dekat tempat yang ada wifi. hee :D ok, byeee.

p/s= AWKWARD.

No more 24/7.

2011-01-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

away.

byebye home. hello shah alam.

no more online 24/7.

yeah. i pindah rumah sewa baru. dulu i duduk dekat pusat komersial with my friend which i've known them since matriks. but tak sama course. mereka semua islamic banking and i sorang je marketing. and the reason why i pindah sebab i nak duduk dengan classmate i. bukan sebab gaduh or salah paham ok. mereka semua best. takda salah paham pon :) rumah sewa baru jauh sikit dari rumah sewa lama. and dia rumah flat. dulu i duduk rumah kedai. tapi takpa lah sebab nak duduk dengan classmate punya pasal kan. hee :) but i takkan lupa my ex housemate ok! nanti i melawat you alls ok then kita pergi dinner sama sama. ngee :D btw, kita ada 'plan wajib jadi' tu. hehe. tadi baru kemas rumah. well, not all. just my room je. oh i roommate dengan janjan. yer, yang baby boo~ tuh. ahaha. berdua saja :) and yeah, we are gonna make our room like very the bom! haha :D we'll see. damn. esok nak start class dah. ah, malasnya. bukan malas nak jumpa classmate tapi malas nak bangun pagi. macam mana nak bangun pagi ni. hope tak terlajak lah. haih. oh well people, happy classing! haha. ada ker ayat classing ni? lantak lah. byee :D

p/s= kenapa macam banyak sangat emoticon :) ni? =.=

p/s/s= akan amat sangat jarang online.

Start a new year with a big smile.

2011-01-01T00:47:00.001+08:00

happy new year people!

2011 :)

more smiling. less crying.

more trying. less give up.

more reality. less dreaming.

more hardworking. less lazybum.
more praying. less cursing.

more happy. less sad.

more appreciate. less blaming.

well, i just want to be happy this year (;

We've come this far.

2010-12-31T19:53:00.000+08:00

2010 almost end and 2011 will come excitedly. so, let us see whether my previous resolutions had been done successfully or it's just failed terribly.

Lessen my skipping class activity. [FAIL for sem 2 SUCCESSFUL for sem 3]

Get my 1^st driving license. [FAIL]

Focusing on marketing course. [HALF-FAIL]

Get a 3 pointer and above on my result or maintain it. [FAIL FAIL FAIL]

Fattening myself. [again, FAIL]

Go for a vacation with my friends. [HALF-FAIL]

More on studying. Less in partying. [HALF-FAIL]

Try harder to get what i want for my future. [SUCCESSFUL]

Be a good daughter. Nice to people. And be a true friend. [HALF-FAIL]

Just have fun and more matured. [SUCCESSFUL]

so, overall i am successfully failed for my 2010 resolutions. damn =.= seriously, i try so hard to keep it come true. but, i'm not lucky enough to fulfill my resolutions. pity me. oh well, for me. 2010 are the most depressing year ever. of course i will not forget all the things that happen to me in this year. but i just wanna be fair, 2010 also give me alot of sweet memories and it teach me how to become more stronger than ever. it's life. you goes up and you come down. i guess, it is not that depressing right? :)

2011, be nice ok. i don't want to be hurt anymore. byebye 2010, hello 2011 :D and incase you don't realize, i am officially a voter now. yeah!!

people, let the flames begin. let see how we will stand in 2011.

We gave our broken heart and thinking; it will heal.

2010-12-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

we always think about the other person's thought. does he or she thinking the same about us. does he or she believe that the relationship is really pure or it's just another agenda we used to do when we know someone. at first, we've thought 'our' relationship should have come this far; knowing that we actually have some relation that can put us together until the end of time but frankly, it doesn't. and for some reason, we deny it all along. we believe the other person might slightly thinking something about us. but the truth is, they don't. well, it looks like that. we feels different. we ask them. and they just simply said, "oh, nothing. there's no different between us. it's your head that think it something". look, we ask because we feels different not just because we make it to feel different. they treat us at the first time like we are the queen. we are the king. and then, when time past by, they treat us like shit, literally. you know what i mean. the thing is, we don't feel the same like we used to. like when 'our' relationship when we know each other on the first place. why? why should we feels that way? it doesn't feels good. seriously, who wants to feel that way? feels rejected. fuck up.

please treat me nicely.

Harimau Malaya.

2010-12-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

selamat berjuang harimau malaya. buktikan pada pihak lawan yang kita boleh menang :D takpayah guna bomoh. takpayah guna laser. takpayah guna sportlight. takpayah main kotor senang cerita. skills, luck and doa. itu yang penting. main dengan penuh rasa bangga. i will support you guys walaupun cukup sekadar tengok dekat tv1 saja. nak beli tiket pergi indon tak mampu. hehe. untuk penyokong penyokong Malaysia dekat stadium tu, takpayah lah buat macam kita ni budak kampung. tak cool ok. support biasa biasa sudahlah. ingat, if korang buat pasal. tak kisahlah pihak lawan or you all nanti menang automatik. so, pikirkan lah yer :)

p/s= masih terbayang gol pertama Safee Sali time lawan final dekat stadium bukit jalil haritu :D

update: Malaysia menang. yeahh! :D aggregate 4-2. eventhough kita kalah dekat tempat pihak lawan, 1-2. well, kita menang secara aggregate. but still, agak tak santek lah nak bawak balik gol yg kita dapat tu sebab kita kalah. tapi yang penting, kita dapat cuti esok. haha! WELL DONE HARIMAU MALAYA!! :)

Worried.

2010-12-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

where are you?

i'm worried about you dear.

hmm :\

jangan buat macam ni boleh tak.

sakit jantung ni haa.

haish.

Tahniah Malaysia.

2010-12-27T00:24:00.001+08:00

Terimakasih untuk 3 gol itu. Terimakasih sebab tak main kotor. Terimakasih penyokong Malaysia kerana berjaya kawal perasaan teruja anda walaupun ada scene suluh laser tadi. Untuk orang itu, anda sungguh tak matang. Harap nanti game dekat negara lawan dapatlah sumbat lagi gol yer :) Hanya mampu sokong dari jauh saja. Pagi nanti mau pulang sudah. So, kena tido awal. Byeee :D

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Dungun.

2010-12-24T17:39:00.001+08:00

Arrived at dungun, kampung ayah. Sebab esok abang sedara tunang. Jadi rombongan cik kiah lah. Haha. But rasa sangat takda mood sebab period pain. Damn. Ni nasib baik dah ok sikit. Oh and, jangan terkejut kampung i dah ada streamyx :D happy gila! Barulah tak bosan kan. Ngee. Ok lah, will be updating my blog later. Byee :D

P/s= maaf. Agak messy post kali ni sebab update through android. Huhu.

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Obsessing.

2010-12-23T05:19:00.000+08:00

i have been obsessing with red hair.

HELP ME.

or i will committed to a crime soon.

Grow up, will ya.

2010-12-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

rasa annoying gila bila baca status orang dekat facebook or sms from handphone bila ayat dia macam ni, "nasihat oqg, tapi diqi sendiqi tak qeti nak betolkan". i takda masalah dengan ayat dia tapi dengan ejaan dia. huruf yang diorang gunakan untuk eja ayat tu. tak perlulah nak fancy fancy tukar huruf R jadi Q. baca pun dah tak sedap apatah lagi nak menghayati ayat tu sendiri. grow up boleh? you bukan budak budak lagi. jadi ejalah dengan betul. i tak kisah if ejaan dia macam lain jadi laen or minum jadi minom or kau jadi ko. sebab i pun eja macam tu bila time sms or reply comments. tapi kalau diri dah jadi diqi and aku dah jadi akuw tak ker rasa annoying bila baca? cuba i post blog macam ni, akuw taqa geti nak eja. tlg ajar akuw. hah, macam mana? for me, yes. tak tahulah for you guys. so, please stop eja perkataan tu macam you baru masuk tadika. i think budak tadika pun pandai eja. D.I.R.I, DIRI. see. tak payah nak fancy fancy sangat yer ejaan anda tu :)

ini tak annoying. ini comel :D

Saya budak emo.

2010-12-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

dulu dulu masa zaman sekolah, selalu cari lagu yang boleh buat kita layan perasaan. yelah, masa tu kan kita hebat dengan emo, gothic semua. jadi rambut pun mesti kasi senget jatuh bawah panjang punya. lagi terjurai lagi emo. lepas tu, mesti pakai celak tebal tebal. kalau nak bezakan kita dengan raccoon pun boleh jadi confuse. nasib baik takda ekor jer. lagu ni memang lagu 'all time fav' lah. 1st time dengar terus menangis. sebab melayan sangatkan perasaan dulu. yelah, emo kan. heh. i kalau dengar lagu, i dengar lirik dia sekali. nak pahamkan apa maksud sebenar lagu ni. lagi lagi kalau lagu yang macam maksud dia mendalam sangat. lagi i suka. lagi masyuk kalau kita dengar lagu tu, masuk sekali dengan life kita time tu. miserable. pergh. lagi tangkap leleh wa cakap lu. tadi bw kat blog miatot sekali dia punya lagu mengimbau kembali zaman emo i pulak. trimas lah miatot. hehe. dahlah. dengar jelah lagu ni.

touching kan. dah, takpayah nak cakap apa apa. Britney punya lagu memang awesome. tau lah, lagu ni bukan untuk budak emo. tapi lagu dia emotional apa. zaman sekolah i bukan budak emo gothic and whatsoever tu. i budak baik. tudung labuh gitu. ok, tipu. budak baik jer. jap, tuka. budak baiklah sikit tapi nakal. byeee :D

You ain't always get what you want.

2010-12-22T03:47:00.000+08:00

a while ago, it felt so easy, calm and i think i have made a right decision to choose what i wanna choose but now, after reading those words suddenly i realized it ain't easy. it ain't calm. hoping too much can make us into a disaster feeling. it's not wrong to be hope. but yet, sometimes the way we want can be so meaningless. it's just we don't want our hope become hopeless. i don't know how to say this, but i feel disappointed. and yes it did makes me think twice with an extra scoop of curiosity after i read those words. it's not cool anymore. it's underrated.

how i wish happily ever after can be much nicer and overrated when it sounds.